My art and my family = our well-being

Wow. I really unloaded a lot of mental baggage yesterday and I feel the healing beginning. My thoughts sometimes just spill out like the paint on my palette and sometimes i have to just "let it go". I think too many people let things including emotions and negativity build up over time and holding it all in can be so detrimental to one's health and mental well-being. My art and creativity has allowed me to "spill" most of the time without too much consequence. I have really suppressed my writing for a long time because too many times in the past I have had people delve in to my private journals and hurt me by ruining my ability to trust. So, if I wrote things down they were always things that didn't really matter. Now I know what I need to do to take my writing and my art to that next level and that is to put my heart and my soul into it. Stop suppressing what I may think is too personal. That is exactly what I did here today and then I allowed someone I love to read it. She didn't judge me nor did she disown me or make me feel like less of a person. She made me feel relief and start to heal. Thanks, little sis! I still don't know if I am ready for the happy reunion with my father, but I am ready to move on. I think if dad had been trying to "protect" my sister's from something it shouldn't have been their brother and /or sister... and I really wish that he had tried to maybe protect us as well. I am starting to produce more and more art work and submit to every contest I can just to get my work out there. I know eventually I will get some of it published and maybe this is my time to start getting it all out there. Thanks for supporting me. :-)