Creative Block

Dear friends, I have been so creatively blocked lately that I feel like I am losing my mind. Like I have a serious case of ADD or something. I am forcing myself to punch through and just painting anyway because I know if I don't like it, part of being a mixed media collage artist is i can layer over it and   move on. Nothing in the art world is ever really permanent. I also feel the need to start writing my fiction again. I may just start posting more parts to my stories requesting that people give me opinions and feedback periodically. I dunno what direction i am headed in next. I know that I need a vacation to get creatively re-charged but I cannot afford one. I know that i am getting tired of people I know paying OTHER people THEY know to do the work I wish they would pay me to do but I guess I haven't earned the right to actually do my job for pay yet. Humph. I really need to get back on the positive thinking track and get motivated to feel something again along the lines of happiness and enthusiasm. Still  waiting for people to read this and start giving me some feed back. Is this just wishful thinking?